Wow. it's been a while since I've writing something close to a constructive evidence that I'm alive and ticking. I suppose, I really havent. There are some times in life where you just have to pack up all your pictures, and photographs and start anew. And maybe I've been trying to do that, but not so well. Alcohol always seems to be my refuge. I have broken the birdge between many friends and family and don't really know where I'm heading, except for that Porsche I test drove today. That filled me with more energy and life than I've ever been in quite a while. Perhaps my future lies in there...