Hindsight

I was sorta looking forward to sending her flowers on valentines, until I realised today that it really wouldnt ve in anyone's best interest for me to do so, and the first thing that came to mind was that I saved $50. And then I realised what a selfish person I had become. I mean I guess I dont really owe anyone anything, but I'm getting too old for this shit. I really should be making upwards of 100k a year by now, but I am somewhat content with my 50k a year job. I dont know, I guess life isnt a bed of roses but I'd like to feel like it was, and I'm definately just falling and not caring whether its the thorns I'm gonna be falling on or whether its the petals.