Tiredness of life.

I'm just so damn Tired. Today has been the first day I've been physically able to go to school in 3 days, after being completely shut out by some flu. I lost 9 pounds(2 kg) in like less than a week. The good news is at least my "belly" is almost gone. It's sorta wierd that this 3 hours of sleep schedule and 14 hours or so a day of studying schedule that I followed for 1 week completely burnt me out. I have no desire to go to class, or to even pick up my books to read the title. My parents obviosuly dont understand with the "You got to do what you got to do" mentality. I really want to graduate in December, but it seems that I cant continue with my rampant studying for too much longer before I can crash and burn again. Next week is career fair, giving me something to look forward to. Maybe I can try and land me an interview or 2 to pump up my spirits.

Wish I could talk to my girlfriend, but she's out with her Wisedom teeth removal, and probably busy with other stuff. It's been nice that once or twice a day my friends drop in to check in on me. It's a nice feeling, t be loved. Now, I've got to go and type out my emailes to the various professors, proclaiming my reason for not going to classes, and follow up this weekend with a bit of catch-up studying.

Moving on, this morning, when the alarm clock rang, I pre-emtively took one hand and put it on the snooze button for the first time in my life. And 2 seconds later, I debated with myself that by doing so, I'll eventually convince myself to turn off the alarm clock and go to bed, and just got up.
And somehow, I felt that I've made my first step to normality, at least normality for me.
Well, hope everyone is doing well. Take care all.

IF you dont fucking know me, dont leave a fucking comment, especially if you're trying to advertise something.

Sigh, Guess that doesnt work. Maybe I should ask nicely :-/

Today I learnt that sometimes you have to go back to your past to find the answers for tomorrow.

Maybe I AM fated to be a loner, with my preferred career choice, and all.
Sigh.

Ah the new roomies

Today, I realised that true to my guess, Jimmy is indeed a big fat loser. So, I just got off a game of Basketball. I'm up 4 points. We're playing till 11. Ball goes out of bounds, Jimmy's last touch. So, i calmly walk over to get the ball. Jimmy runs past me, beats me to the ball, and goes for the goal. I'm like wtf, that's out of bounds. He's like " we never established that before the game". So, I'm not sure whether this is right, but there probably is a line dictating the boundary of the field for some reason right? I mean seriously, what kinda nonsense is that. I'm like whatever, he wants to be a baby, i'll let him be. Then he starts taking points from me, claiming I never made them, and then adding points for himself, claiming he made them. And then he tells me after the game his strategy. " I saw you were slightly tired, so I would purposely shoot it so it rebounds and make you chase after it, so you can get more tired" I dont know what this is, but it seems to me a big case of the loser syndrome. Sigh.

It's been almost 2 months since I wrote a blog. But I finally got an oppurtunity and actually felt like doing it today. TOmorrow I turn 22. Feels sorta surreal. As though the last 5 years have flashed past me without me knowing. I cant remember what I did last year on my birthday, but I do believe it involved drinking and partying. Seems as though this year will be very much different. A casual dinner with my close friends followed by some homework and sleep will be the agenda for tomorrow. Things have changed in the last year, and I think so have the people I know. Well, now that I've got to go finish my work for the day, so as to not have anything to do when i get back home, I'll be off. Adios.