Jealosy, that bitterness, that ridicule

SO, I think for the first time in my life, I felt a pang of jealousy today. It all happened when I was talking to Ting, and she mentioned shes going to watch a show with some guy. You see, its not that I'm jealous shes going with a guy. I'm jeaous that He gets to spend more time with my girlfriend than I do. I'm jealous that he gets to be in her company to watch the show. I'm jealous that he gets to sit beside her and watch the show. :-(
More than jealous, I'm sad, I'm unhappy and I'm dissapointed in myself that I cant be there to do all those things with her. Everytime she tells me she has had a long day, I wanna be right next to her and massage her neck and back and tell her everything 'll be alrite. All in all, Today I miss my girl terribly. Especially after our phone conversations and all the little things that she tells me, and the email she sends me every night, so I can wake up to read her mail. Shes the sweetest girl I've ever known. Alrite, enough about my rave. THe party:

The party was eventful to say the least. Someone tried to steal the keg and a bunch of us almost rearranged his face, but he made a wise decision in leaving. Then like 8 policeman and a K9 unit showed up. For a noise complaint. Did someone put a "Krispy Kreme" sign in the front yard? Why does it take 8 policeman and a dog to knock on the door and ask us to turn the stereo down? So anyways, that and the fact that it rained prevented the party from being all that it could have been. Thats just how it is sometimes, luck of the draw. All in all, I had a good time though and I heard from lots of other people that they did too so... mission accomplished. Hopefully the Pirate party will work out better. If you want pics, go to http://plaza.ufl.edu/nk/sh1.htm .

ps I really enjoy talking to you... It made my day, night and my whole week.